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Heartbreak, heartwarming, hope and happiness too.I enjoyed this inspiring memoir by Alexis Marie Chute Alexis and Aaron have a baby daughter, Hannah, at the start of the book Their second child, Zachary, had originally been due December 2010 Routine prenatal tests revealed there were very serious problems Zac was born early at 30 weeks He passed away just moments later Heartbreaking And the struggles trying to get pregnant again Will there meobstacles and heartache ahead Very sad Heartbreak, heartwarming, hope and happiness too.I enjoyed this inspiring memoir by Alexis Marie Chute Alexis and Aaron have a baby daughter, Hannah, at the start of the book Their second child, Zachary, had originally been due December 2010 Routine prenatal tests revealed there were very serious problems Zac was born early at 30 weeks He passed away just moments later Heartbreaking And the struggles trying to get pregnant again Will there meobstacles and heartache ahead Very sad material, especially at the outset, but a beautiful book, with lots of hope too The author has really opened her heart and this emotional book is a quick easy read despite the very sad circumstances A moving story, told week by week through her subsequent pregnancy sort of like a pregnancy diary journal but never repetitive Rather than enjoying being pregnant, she just gets through it, worrying constantly that the happy ending may be cut short, like before it could all happen again.I ve read many medical memoirs midwife memoirs I m about to start one where modern surgery can fix things even in babies not yet born surgery in utero Sometimes things cannot be fixed and this is Alexis Marie s heartbreaking story.I have one sibling, a sister I am a third child My other sister died a few days after birth, three years before I was born I don t think it was anything genetic something like pneumonia I think My parents would have had two children, I wouldn t have been born had she lived I often think about everything, and can t imagine what my parents went through so this book really resonated with me My parents always talked openly about everything A neighbour s daughter was born with cancer when she died they never talked about it, and they didn t want anyone else talking about it either I m sure writing this memoir will have been therapeutic to Alexis Marie, and she is now helping others come to terms with such tragic circumstances A beautiful portrayal I have never been pregnant so I have not experienced a loss Although, readers like me can and could say we can relate and understand what author, Alexis went through it would not be fair to really say this Unless you have actually had a miscarriage, I don t think you can fully understand However, readers like me do get a glimpse into this tragic event If for nothing else we can havepatience and acceptance to allow someone grieving to grieve in their own way and not try to fit everyon I have never been pregnant so I have not experienced a loss Although, readers like me can and could say we can relate and understand what author, Alexis went through it would not be fair to really say this Unless you have actually had a miscarriage, I don t think you can fully understand However, readers like me do get a glimpse into this tragic event If for nothing else we can havepatience and acceptance to allow someone grieving to grieve in their own way and not try to fit everyone into one mold of grieve Back to the book I do really like how the book was split out by periods of time in trimesters To be clear it was trimesters for Alexi and her husband s new son Yet, at the same time it was in periods of time for Zach, their son that they lost Alexis does not shy away from sharing her emotions from anger, loss, fear, obsession, and happiness So anyone who has experienced a miscarriage will relate Today we areaccepting to share these stories of loss to help heal not only for ourselves but to help others as well It is for these reasons that I applaud people like Alexis who are willing to share their stories INDIEREADER REVIEW Verdict EXPECTING SUNSHINE is an invaluable resource for those dealing with loss, as well as a beautifully told story of grief, hope, healing and love 5.0 STAR RATINGAlexis Marie Chute and her husband Aaron lost their second child, their son Zachary, minutes after his birth due to a heart condition called Tuberous Sclerosis Complex For a year, Chute descended into what she calls her Year of Distraction, in which she was unable to function or focus for grief On emerging f INDIEREADER REVIEW Verdict EXPECTING SUNSHINE is an invaluable resource for those dealing with loss, as well as a beautifully told story of grief, hope, healing and love 5.0 STAR RATINGAlexis Marie Chute and her husband Aaron lost their second child, their son Zachary, minutes after his birth due to a heart condition called Tuberous Sclerosis Complex For a year, Chute descended into what she calls her Year of Distraction, in which she was unable to function or focus for grief On emerging from that year of mourning, she became pregnant once , hoping desperately this time for a healthy baby This book is a narrative of that pregnancy, full of anxiety, anticipation, fear, healing, and hope.There are few if any losses in life that match the heartbreak of losing a child, and this book is an achingly beautiful response to such a loss This is a straightforward, honest, day by day first person account, all theeffective for being simply and clearly told, without melodrama but with an lovely, lyrical, almost poetic writing style Chute holds nothing back, from her anger at God to marital stresses to her panicked anxiety at the thought of possibly losing either this new pregnancy or her oldest child, her cherished daughter Hannah However, there are moments of brilliant sunshine that illuminate the book as well, as when she hears her new baby s heartbeat for the first time, singing a refrain of I am alive, I am well, I am here Bring a handkerchief either way tears of sorrow and tears of joy are intertwined throughout the book The honesty and the clarity of the writing make this an invaluable resource not only for those who have lost a baby to miscarriage, stillbirth, or early death, but also to their friends and family, who may be unsure of what to say or how to approach their loved one s grief Chute openly and directly discusses what helped her and what did not the gentleness, openness, and warmth of her devout Aunt Ruth s approach to her doubts about religion and faith versus the overbearing dogmatism of some members of her Mourning Together group, for example The result is a book that is useful as well as deeply heartwarming.EXPECTING SUNSHINE is an invaluable resource for those dealing with loss, as well as a beautifully told story of grief, hope, healing and love Catherine Langrehr for IndieReaderKIRKUS REVIEW A mother recovering from the death of her newborn child experiences both hope and intense anxiety as she embarks on another pregnancy in this debut memoir.Chute, a photographer and artist, lost her second child, Zachary, just moments after his birth when he died of an inoperable heart tumor caused by a genetic abnormality called Tuberous Sclerosis Complex After a period of anguish that included an episode in which she pounded her head against a wall and stabbed her palm with a golf tee, she immersed herself in a Year of Distraction through frenetic work Then, after being reassured that Zachary s illness was not inherited, she became pregnant again and began a new ordeal, chronicled here in 40 week by week chapters Chute s worry that the new pregnancy would also end in tragedy preoccupied her and made every doctor s appointment, ultrasound scan, and bodily twinge an agony of apprehension Meanwhile, she tried to process the unfinished business of Zachary s death in a church run mourning group where she found mainly a gruel of unhelpful platitudes mothered her rambunctious 2 year old daughter, Hannah and tussled and bonded with her husband, Aaron, who was supportive but sometimes wounded her with his determination to get on with life In this sometimes fraught, sometimes luminous work, Chute s narrative brings together in a roiling, deeply felt tangle maternal experiences that are usually separated, as the exhilaration of pregnancy and the exhausting happiness of raising a toddler are overshadowed by lingering grief and dread It s an emotional roller coaster, with giddy anticipation turning on a dime into fretful, claustrophobic brooding and self laceration Chute s prose conveys the full force of her turmoil with powerful imagery I felt that I would be like uncooked ground beef, bloody and grated, for the rest of my life but keeps enough distance to probe and interrogate her feelings, and gain a deeper understanding of them.A moving saga of motherhood in extremis that earns its moments of certainty and bliss through an honest grappling with pain and doubt It only took one page for me to be swept into Alexis Marie s story I could not put this book down Expecting Sunshine is an insightful read for anyone walking alongside a family member or friend experiencing a significant loss It offers a window into the internal workings of the grieving process and a reminder that much of life happens away from the public eye Your heart will beat with compassion and you will be pulling for Alexis Marie to discover true healing as you follow her journey. Expecting Sunshine is a multi award winning memoir and a Kirkus Review BEST INDIE BOOK of Anyone who has experienced or knows someone who has experienced miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, stillbirth, or other forms of pregnancy and baby loss should read Expecting Sunshine, including those considering or already pregnant againAfter her son, Zachary, dies in her arms at birth, visual artist and author Alexis Marie Chute disappears into her Year of Distraction She cannot paint or write or tap into the heart of who she used to be, mourning not only for Zachary, but also for the future they might have had together It is only when Chute learns she is pregnant again that she sets out to find healing and rediscover her identity just in time, she hopes, to welcome her next childIn the forty weeks of her pregnancy, Chute grapples with her strained marriage, shaken faith, and medical diagnosis, with profound resultsGlowing with riveting and gorgeous prose, Expecting Sunshine chronicles the anticipation and anxiety of expecting a baby while still grieving for the child that came before enveloping readers with insightful observations on grief and healing, life and death, and the incredible power of a mother s loveSecond Edition includes Bonus chapter written from the author s husband s perspective Plus, resource section, group discussion questions, and QA with author Alexis Marie Chute Alexis Marie has experienced a great loss that has effected every aspect of her mind, body and soul It is her story about the challenges she faces with herself, her family and her friends She distracts herself from her feelings, emotions and misery Until she comes to the realization that she needs to come head to head with her grief She realized she needed to face her overwhelming fears, anxiety and sorrow in order to heal Alexis Marie does a great job including the reader in her book It m Alexis Marie has experienced a great loss that has effected every aspect of her mind, body and soul It is her story about the challenges she faces with herself, her family and her friends She distracts herself from her feelings, emotions and misery Until she comes to the realization that she needs to come head to head with her grief She realized she needed to face her overwhelming fears, anxiety and sorrow in order to heal Alexis Marie does a great job including the reader in her book It made me think, laugh and cry I had a hard time putting this book down This book is for anyone that has experienced grief, not just child loss, but any sort of loss It s a great book to help people know what loss is like or for someone that has had a loss, to know that you are not alone I think most people could relate to and enjoy the book Expecting Sunshine Expecting Sunshine was recommended to me by my wife It isn t normally the type of book I would pick up, but I am so glad I did It is a thoughtful and engaging look at the impact of the loss of a child on a young family You take an emotional journey through their grief and recovery which is also humorous at times and uplifting throughout You will find yourself cheering for this family A good read for anyone. Expecting Sunshine by Alexis Marie Chute is a wonderful memoir written by a mourning mother This book is raw and honest It is brave and beautifully written Alexis Marie has managed to record her story in a way that will speak to every man and women who has ever become or wanted to become a parent While reading this book I cried, and laughed a little, but mostly felt truly inspired by her strength and ability to grow out of tragedy A must read Absolutely loved it thankgod for some light humour and it not all being over emotional Wasnt expecting to like it as much as i did. One early morning while my husband drove me to work I took the opportunity to begin reading my new book Expecting Sunshine A Journey of Grief, Healing, and Pregnancy After Loss by Alexis Marie Chute Eagerly I dived into the prologue entitled Conception Instantly I was pulled into the world of Alexis Marie, nearly a year following the loss of her second child Zachary, struggling to finish her last photography job in her Year of Distraction without succumbing to her grief By the end of thi One early morning while my husband drove me to work I took the opportunity to begin reading my new book Expecting Sunshine A Journey of Grief, Healing, and Pregnancy After Loss by Alexis Marie Chute Eagerly I dived into the prologue entitled Conception Instantly I was pulled into the world of Alexis Marie, nearly a year following the loss of her second child Zachary, struggling to finish her last photography job in her Year of Distraction without succumbing to her grief By the end of this chapter I was literally breathless, tears rimming my eyes, and my heart aching I felt I was there with her, that I lived those moments Even as I write this now I am moved by the memory of her words Through the rest of the book Alexis Marie takes us on the emotional journey of her third pregnancy speckling it with heart wrenching flashbacks of her previous loss and the aftermath It was uplifting to follow Alexis Marie s healing journey Through the highs and lows, she paints a heart warming picture of hope after devastating loss I recommend this book for anyone who has suffered a loss or knows someone who has